Pleeeease God, Let Me Keep My Brows!

So, it turns out I’m blogging again. Alex whipped up this new blog design for me over the weekend, and I really couldn’t say no, after all the trouble he took to bring it a little more up to date. We toyed with the idea of starting up a totally new blog with cancer in the title, but I decided that as SeeByZoe is a blog about my life, then why should I change it just because cancer has just decided to bust in on that action. I may as well  just keep on nattering on about it all over here because I’ll only have to swap back over when I get through all of this!

We popped down to Devon last Wednesday and returned on Sunday. The weather was pretty shoddy for most of the time, and on the one sunny day that there was, it was so over-crowded that we decided to do adrive by and head back to chill at the apartment. I’d like to say we were scoffing cheese and drinking fine wines, but eating clean, ready for the chemo, scuppered those plans. Boo. Hiss.

I have now been a Vegan for two weeks… Who’d have thought it? After a few attempts in the past, it took rotten ole cancer to push me into it. I’m actually really enjoying it – particularly because Alex has been doing all of the cooking! He has been amazing. I’ll do my part in the kitchen soon, but I’m trying to get up-to-date with all of my work before any sickness kicks in. The doctors say being freelance is a bonus, but little do they know how much I stress about getting everything done. I do see their point though as working from home means I can just take a few little naps throughout the day, and then just sit right back in front of my laptop when I’m feeling up to it. I’m much luckier than so many people, and I think it’s that thought that has been getting me through all of this. Well, that, music, Alex and the kids pets.

I’m more than prepared for the chemo to start next Thursday. There are a few things before that which I’m not looking forward to at all, but if they get me over the finish line, then I’ll take what’s going to be thrown at me. Suck it up and get on with it Zoe. You can do this!

I have to say that most of my preparation has involved shopping! I’ve stocked up on natural skin care products, ready for the effects the treatment may have on my skin. I have also purchased a wig (more on that soon), as well as an Anastasia brow palette (with stencils, cos I ain’t no artist!), just in case I have to draw those suckers back on. I was hoping my get ready routine would be reduced by half because of the expected hair loss, but then I figured if I lose my brows and lashes on top of my hair, then it could take me even longer… We shall see.

Pleeeease God, let me keep my brows and lashes… I haven’t exactly been blessed with amazing ones as it is – it’s not asking too much to spare me them, is it?! I’ll let you take the hair, at a push, but not the lashes and brows!

Anyway, I’ve rambled. My next few posts will be the story of the wig and Wilson, the PICC line that never quite happened!

I hope you all had a lovely Easter and ate lots of lovely chocolate for me. I’ve just been sniffing the stuff like a glue addict – Wasn’t really into the vegan chocolate that I tested out, but on the plus side, it’ll all help my figure when the chemicals start getting pumped in ;)

Until next time.


Anastasia beauty Express for brows and eyes…

Cancer Brow Anastasia

Just a dog chilling’ in Devon…

Besty Chillin' in Devon


Vegan feasting…

Vegan Curry

One cat in hiding…

Cat in a Bag

On Being Diagnosed with Breast Cancer

I know, I know… It’s been quite some time! Unfortunately, I’m just stopping by to tell you all a little bad news. Last week, I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer – In my favourite boob at that… such a traitor! I have decided to share the news, so I don’t feel so lonely when I’m going through my treatment. You all know that I like to talk.

I guess, for some people, it’s hard to come to terms with news like this, but I think I’d accepted it even before the words came out of the doctor’s mouth. I was told to prepare for the worst after all, and oh my, did I do that. One minute I’m just plodding along, looking forward to my year packed with many plans and then before I know it, I’m being attacked with a biopsy gun, followed swiftly by the dreaded news.

If I’m honest, I thought I’d feel a lot worse on hearing my diagnosis, but I still feel that it’s just simply another hurdle that I have to get over in my life. I know I’ll come out stronger. I may end up having no hair for quite some time and a bit of a wonky boob, but hey ho, there’s no point grumbling, as it will just make things depressing for everyone around me. There are definitely people a lot worse off than me in the world. So, I’m going to try and get through this with much grace as possible and most probably with the aid of lots and lots of wise cracks, that nobody really needs to hear.

In other news, I am now a vegan (sobs), I’m off wig shopping next week (because no one needs to see my bald head), and I’ve got someone on the case for my chemo playlists. You can never be too prepared.

I’m unsure if I’ll be blogging my journey throughout the year… I mean, come on, I’ve been a pretty shoddy blogger to date – why should this change anything?!

Don’t you worry about me though, I’m far too much of a stubborn little lady, who really does like to get her own way :)

Until next time x

As you can see, the kids have taken the  news pretty well…

Fat Cat